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Went for my wax this morning it was VERY eina. But now I look like a plucked chicken.

Noel and I had our first BIG fight.

Tomorrow is AA/NA

No other news

Miss my mom

Well tomorrow morning I am of to the beauty salon, waxing, it my first time! Eina!

Got a wonderful mothers day present from Noel.

His name is Joshua. The other teddies are jelous/

Went to evening church.

That's all my news.

Happy mothersday's day to all.

Another shopping day, dad's are covered for Fathers day, now I can say I'm broke. Went to the pharmacy begging for something to help me sleep, they gave me some stuff, not help much though, 2 hours!! Record! 4 sleeps people.

Today was a shopping day, Noel was bought all his presents, from anniversary presents to birthday presents. Ouma and mommy was not forgotten seeing mothersday is around the corner. Noel bought a ring , all wrapped, 6 sleeps till our anniversary and I’m not as scared as i thought I would be. Long term relationships not my favourite, but I think I’ll stick with this one. Popping the question? I think so. I keep joking and telling him that if that is the case I’ll think about it….LOL..ya right

Noels mother has once again gone to the extreme and got here self a (SPIRAL PERM) wig, the sell them to the black people, weird lady.

My diet is hard

Noel is brilliant

Next week-end going to Joburg.

My mom is sick, this is very unnerving for me.

I have had a good week-end and a wonderful day ,o.k. I don’t remember yesterday due to my meds, but I’ve been repeating today in my ears so that i don’t forget.  This morning Noel and I went driving looking for a church, we have bible study together every night for we bought this 40 day ‘why God created me book, what is  my purpose”, so first church we stopped..nope a bunch of old ladies yelling, leopard crawls to the car and went on looking for those cute signs that said, ‘church’. Found a church, was incredible I have never ever felt like that before God. Seeing Noel worship (I know you not suppose to look at one another), but it makes me fall in love with him more.  After the exciting morning service I could not wait for the evening, I prayed, while worshiping and prayed that God would send A HUMAN TONIGHT to answer my prayer, without asking what my prayer  was. The evening went on. They only sing at night, dance in the isles (my mom would love that), truly worship. Well I had a personal moment with my Lord, I cried, I did not know why, felt so close to Him. AS I was leaving the pastor approached me, he answered , he was the man answering the prayer, I started crying, he said at the end he said “By the way God gives you a green light, go ahead” “ and stop worrying so”, then almost by the door a man approached, he said, ‘you kicked your shoes off and danced bear feet, your comfortable here, the Lord wants you to dance, you have great rithem. Well tomorrow is my first prayer meeting were you schedule an hour in a book were u pray 60 min. So tomorrow I’m gonna ask God about his dancing thing. What a day!

God bless

Rench

Well today has to be better than yesterday, being cheated out of money, all kinds of funny situations that I would not like having again.

Noel wanted to cut last night, I wonder if this will ever stop. Is this my life now , looking, wondering if he bought blades? Well it was one more cut free night.

I got angry last night said some men things, frustrated, screaming at him , I want more than this. I ended up ion tears and he looked like a lost kid. He would never scream at me. I hate myself when personalities of mine swop and I get evil. All is forgiven they say….but words cant be taken away.

Like I say today has to be better.

God Bless

It is by God’s grace I found a brand new friend.

Debi thank you for speaking so highly of me, not judging and being so wonderful.

Happy birthday to your little girl.

May you be blessed.

Rench